Patricia Haman

How can we even BELIEVE that we can find the technology that allows us to heal ourselves, improve our health and well-being and keep us off of medications unless it is absolutely necessary? As I have begun to share my Delta Laser with others, I am seeing how difficult it is for others to Believe technology is here for personal use! It is true that we can not see outside of our own perception and have to learn ways to open up to a wider awareness. Mostly we are in our conditioned mind, and are constantly being inundated with messages to remain asleep!
Radiant Life Technologies researched and decades to create a hand device that could be purchased for personal healing use and integrated all esoteric and medical information to date to achieve that purpose. The issue is not the technology now, it is our own conditioned dependency on allopathic medication and methods. In order to become independent we must take responsibility to do our own research and make our own decisions about our own health and healing. I see people on pain medications, developing dependencies on them, when this technology works wonders on pain. I use it on my neck and am pain free! I have used it to remove a mole, to clear up skin ailments, and to increase my immunity. I treated my allergies which emerged when I moved to California and it took about 5 weeks to completely clear. So, do your research people, look into opening up to what is possible rather than what we have learned already. The world must change, we must change and the potential is here for all of us to open up, and to work on standing up and embracing our potential to do things differently!

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check out www.radiant-life-technologies.com . I am the new representative in California and I find it to be an amazing technology for personal health, well-being and healing. The asthetic is amazing on your skin, and the medical is amazing for health!
Also, the center www.agapeinternational.com and Michael Beckwith is awesome! Listen to the live streaming. very inspiring in finding your greatness.
Remember you want to heal and change? the first step is to take full responsiblity for Who and What you are right now and Who is in your life as a Mirror right now. Second, know that all your symptoms are messages about imbalances within that also are mirrored without. Third, all dis-ease is there as a challenge you yourself called forth to Evolve your Under0standing and can be utilized in your development. Fourth, learn to utilize the emotions as information about DESIRE.
FEAR: the desire to run. So, step back, ask for support, and FACE THE CHALLENGE.
ANGER: the desire to fight. Give up fighting AGAINST and learn to FIGHT FOR the UPLIFTMENT OF YOURSELF AND OTHERS. FIGHT FOR CLARITY as to what the challenge is and what the WIN-WIN is for all involved.
SADNESS: the desire for change. You know you need to change and you are not fulfilling that desire, so GET MOVING!
JOY: the desire to LIVE. so GO AHEAD AND LIVE!

It seems apparent to me that the commercials on tv these days are suggesting normal human distress and emotions qualify us all for the Medication Management program! Studies indicate that many kinds of emotions occur throughout the lifespan. What is controversial is what constitutes actual depression. Over the last several generations depression is reported an "epidemic". But is it? or is the definition widening to suit the commercial interests of pharmaceuticals and psychiatry? Is it possible that depression is rising at such a phenomenal rate. If so, does this really speak to the rise of a disease, or the rise of disillusionment? Does it indicate the need for everyone to start drinking the medicine??? or the need to begin to make adjustments in the images we hold and what we think will make us Happy?
If this kind of marketing onslaught continues, the entire population will be medicated and suffering a disease! wakeup people. do not be so ready to hand your life over to a "Dr." who supposedly knows what is wrong with you and can maintain your moods over your life time as long as you "keep comin back!"
There are ways to take response-ability for your life and well-being. Ways to increase your physical and energetic system wellness and work with your emotions rather than trying to medicate them into numbness. You can learn to address the negative thoughts and speech that maintains your sense of inadequacy and incompetence as well as anxiety. You can change yourself. Your were made to change and make adjustments throughout your life span. No matter how much you have suffered and no matter how hard life's challenges are, you can receive truthful information that will support you in overcoming your challenges and meeting your life head on with a sense of aliveness and well-being!

going within going without

In studying with Theun Mares and attending workshops facilitated by Elizabeth Schnugh through the Institute for the Study of Man,  I have come to review much of what I have believed in psychological practice and theory.  I am better able to see the connections, the language differences, and the strengths of the Toltec messages based on their exploration of man and experience.

Lately I have been considering how we actually can fight to leave our conditioned learning behind.  To work with unconscious material more directly in daily life.  How to utilize our emotional experience as a source of information we can actually work with.  The importance of dreams in daily life.  Also, the way we can see and understand our BEHAVIOR as accurate indications of our current state of being.  I am realizing we can Think anything we want.  We can say anything we want.  We can believe anything we want.  We can write anything we want.  And the "proof is in the pudding" isn't it.

Negative behavior patterns are the result of distortions in our learning and understanding.  Places we have not adequately "mapped out" our current understanding and mastery in terms of our current (and past) challenges.  Often, negative patterns are based on the "misconception" that we can avoid our pain.  Yet our pain is the message that we must learn.  It is the defense against pain that is our downfall, not the pain itself.

We develop strategies in earliest childhood to handle our "pain".  Pain equates with discomfort, disequilibrium, and emotion such as fear, anger, and sadness.  We contract and go inside ourselves to master the experience.  The balance between going inside to our fantasy, and reaching outside for more experience is struck very early in life.  We develop our thinking brain to rationalize, think, and think some more.  As if this will solve the problem!  We spend our time in self-soothing fantasy behaviors. Most of the time we are behaving in relationship with thought, not in relationship to actual experience with others , but our thought which we did not even know we had!

Thought takes on a pattern of negativity.  Is not truly supportive of going out into the unknown.  Of reaching into true possibility.  It keeps the same negative messages going.  The ones that were in our early family life but not necessarily spoken.  Just felt and not processed.

Pride, distortions, fear, defensiveness all develop in an attempt NOT TO EXPERIENCE anything new!  Yet all the time we struggle to get away from, or out of our pain into something new!  The very thing we are most uncomfortable with and want to avoid we SAY we want.

Humans are particularly suseptible to our own lies! We are actually very funny creatures! (again, Theun)

Have you noticed we fall in love, and for awhile it is wonderful.  We are willing to be open, to share, to give the benefit of open warmth and feedback.  Yet, we get commited to someone and alas!  the negative voices begin to emerge.  Do not open, do not share, do not reach out, punish, withhold, withdraw, blah blah blah.  We begin to close our precious heartful feelings off from the others to avoid the pain that the love is calling forth for clearing.  We refuse, and we say," well it just didnt work out".

Or it is when we are happiest that we arrange our downfall.  We spring a leak so to speak.  We begin to use substances, to over-indulge in our biggest weakness, anything rather than learn to show up for the joy we seek.  Joy means the DESIRE TO LIVE (Theun Mares) as learned through the workshops with Elizabeth Schnugh.  Anger the desire to fight.  Instead of fighting against our joy, and those we love, we need to really fight for the clarity to know what to support and what to challenge.  We can challenge each other with WARMTH AND TRUTH AT THE SAME TIME.  Yet we use our anger to punish and destroy what we love!  Fear is the desire to retreat and we are all afraid.  Mostly we are afraid of our death and we do not want to face it.  TIme is short, life is short, and we want to act as if we have all the time in the world and go dead before we have to experience it.  The belief that we can avoid anything, escape our learning is a misconception.  We have forgotten how to open up, reach and ask for support, for help and step into our challenges with a full heart.  Knowing the only failure is a failure to fight (Theun Mares).  We are in a battle we can not win, as surely we will battle old age and die no matter what!

So in light of this unresolvable delema how do we reopen our defensive heart?  Atleast we have arrived at a valid thought!

 

 

 

 

Change

why do we find it so difficult to change our patterns; of thought, of emotion, and behavior? Can we find keys to understand how to intitiate powerful changes for the better in our lives? If we had the keys, would we use them and change?
I have searched for the "keys" to change. Some I have found in the sense of allowing a deeper understanding of what "motivates" my current strategies and those of others. If we understand ourselves deep enough this can empower us to bring about changes. We still have to accurately assess our thoughts, emotions and behaviors and link them to our deepest motivating factors. What do we want? where is our desire? often our desires are conflicting. for instance, we want to be close to someone, we want to speak our truth no matter what, and we want to be held in esteem by others. Sometimes we can not have all three at once. If we work at it, developing our relational skills, and unmask our deepest expectations and images, we can change what we call forth in our experiences with others.
First, use your experience with others in your life as a mirror to look at your own self. My teacher, Elizabeth Schnugh, facilitates workshops through the Institute for the Study of Man, Elizabeth says "don't make yourself or others wrong". She teaches we must understand the "mirror" concept and look beyond the "face value" in others to what is underneath. This is often where the mirror is reflecting something in our self.
Some of us organize our behavior to obtain a positive reflection from others while underneath making ourselves wrong for denying our own true experience and expression. Others will speak their truth, while making others wrong in order to feel justified in the lack of skill in taking others in. Myself, I can even fluctuate, depending on how much I am "grounded" and not overstressed and how aware of self and other I can be in each moment.
Self care, is probably one of the most important basic skills and changes that have to occur for life quality and awareness to improve. This begins a very basic step-by-step development of a deep relationship with your self that must come first. Based on the "mirror" concept, your relationships with others will improve, as your relationship with yourself improves.

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Hi Everyone, I have made the trip driving across the USA and it was wonderful! what an amazing beautiful country. I am now unpacked and making Santa Monica my current home. I am available for skype sessions for those who want to stay working with me across country or outside the USA. It is so easy to make major changes once the old patterns are dismantled. It is such a good feeling to be free enough to follow our true desires and to find they reflect what is best for us as well. It is the old emotional patterns and acquired pain and reactivity that forces us into negative patterns and choices. Change is our nature and we can achieve anything with enough guidance, support and impeccability.

An Update

Hello  Everyone,

The end of February I am moving to Santa Monica California.  You can reach me for phone sessions and skype sessions if needed.  My cell phone number remains the same.  Looking forward to hearing from all of you.  Sessions will not be reimbursable through insurance until I am licensed in Ca. and only in that state.

warmly

Patricia Haman

Change

More and more people are consulting with me concerning patterns of behavior they are convinced they can not change. We are not supposed to be victims of our own behavior and addictions. We are powerful yet we can not seem to master ourselves enough to live from that empowerment. What is in the way?

we have three centers from which to perceive and act. They include the moving center (instinctual), the emotional center, and the thinking (intellectual) center. It is important to learn to observe oneself from this perspective. We have to clean up the centers so they are utilized for the correct purpose and not mixed together in inappropriate ways. Body centered healing practices tend to attempt to work with the three centers especially the instinctual or moving center since it is on this level where primary traumatic imprints are stored. David Becelli In the Trauma Release Process has identified very effective exercises to begin to clear yourself on this level.
One must simply allow the body to vibrate at the end of the exercises and allow emotion to flow if it occurs. It s very important not to "think"  (or act) in the middle of emotion but simply to allow the flow of emotion. Emotion distorts thinking.
Our thinking center is best utilized for learning information, and for comparing and contrasting, and categorizing. It is useful in the practical situations of life.
It is the emotional center that decides value, what is wanted, desired, and aimed for in life. This leads to the emotions of anger, sadness, joy, and fear. we are built to experience these emotions based on our desires. If we pay attention to them and realize the reflected desire behind them we can understand better how to work with them.

We are not created victims. we become victims due to our early experiences, our conditioning and the resulting misconceptions we carry about ourselves and about life.

Do not attend therapy that defines you as a powerless victim of circumstance or biological make-up. If you are not shcizophrenic, and experiencing hallucinations or our of control manic-depressive episodes, then you can change. IT is work but it can be done. If you have used drugs today you will experience depression, anxiety, and other related imbalances that take an extended time to heal and overcome. Don't give up. Do your work. Take responsibility, open up to the world around you. Help is everywhere. Do not trust your negative patterns of thought and the emotions that justify them.
You can change, but you must take full responsibility for every thought, emotion, and behavior you create.

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